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2007-05-28T09:28:00.000+08:00

i got tagged! my first time, actually. hehe. this one's from bea: (haha)

RULES:

people who get tagged need to write a blog post of their own with 6 weird things, as well as state the rules clearly. in the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. don’t forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their comments and tell them to read your blog post.

six weird things about me:

1. i don't get addicted at any games except DOTA.. well, whenever i play those internet or console games, i just end up bored and want sumthing dynamic..

2. i eat incredibly fast though i have no big appetite..

3. i love eating at home rather than go outside.. 'coz i eat fast remember? kadiri aman un pag sa labas. haha

4. i constantly think about alot of things thus, my brain is seldomly(wrong word) idle..

5. i hate too assertive people 'coz i'm assertive too (in a silent way)

6. i retaliate as soon as i can if sumone tries to deride me.. maybe a few blows and a bleeding face will do.. well, that depends on what they've done and how i'll take it..

i tag no one and no rules

tittle of my days

2007-03-30T08:41:00.001+08:00

finally, it's summer. but it's not about the enjoyment in the beach, it's the no classes anymore and my mom's promise.. those two are the only thing important to me this summer coz i won't dare to hit the beach and i won't even dare to get darker.. ang itim k n nga e palalalain k p b?

anyways, i got a high grade i didn't expected.. i thought i got low grades for my finals performance decreased.. e ala lng.. jst wanna share..

lately, d n q naglalaro ng dota. natigil q n cia for a while and surely next sem it'll come to an end (fingers crossed.. hehe). pero prang ttamarin n qng mag-aral nian.. wlang na kong diversion and i thnk i'll be very dull wen that arrives..

gs2 k sang pmnta sa debut ni haizell.. e kaso ngka-detour(tam ba?) aq..

mis q n risci lalo cna zell..

ui ros.. eram ng books..

failure in succession

2007-03-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

before, i usually ace my exams without breaking a sweat and those answers, it just invades my head abruptly. sounds a genius? no am not. it's just a matter of luck.. but right now, i'm failing straight down.. from the usual 100, it went down to 90+ and worse.. too grade conscius? i cannot deny that.

With that sudden failures, i tend to get uncontrollable.. i remember one time, i crampled my paper and my classmates murmured, "ano ba yan!"(murmur yan ha at narinig ko) well my initial reaction is nothing.. i just wanted to calm down.. but there's this one situation that things become so out of hand that i punched the room's wall.. well as if there's an effect? ewan ko ba.. namaga lang knuckles ko(until now)

these situations i really want to have a change.. yes, not the situation only but also me.. i've been so radical that i became unconscius with it.. and the worse thing, people think i'm that bad.. well i don't care.. but i need a change.. and it should be big.. where to start? e d start by being calm.. (lately it works)

cguro ansama na nung tingin sken based from this..

these days..

2007-02-20T06:26:00.000+08:00

haayy.. naka-post dn sa wakas.. antagal nang ayaw mag-upload ng page na toh sa pc nmin.. ewan q ba.. inefficient na tlga..

anyways, it's been a hard long weeks for me kase b nman itinigil q pansamantala ung paglalaro ng dota.. as in dumadaan ang 4 days of classes na ndi n q naglalaro..tsk tsk.. kaya inisked q n lng cia tuwing saturdays... pra tlgang importante dota eh.. syempre its my leisure other than sports.. pero leisure is free tym and i guess pinagsisiksikan q lng cia sa tym q.. wla lng.. ng-explain lng..

these past days nga pla, sumasama q dun sa kaklase qng tga mormons.. i dunno exactly kng ano ung religion nla kc d q nman tntanong. sumasama lng aq dun even sa loob ng activity rum nla na airconditioned. wla lng, ung religion nla ay pnapyagng pumasok ang ndi nla ka-religion at pwede png makisama sa activities nila.. pede k dn mag-table tennis at mag-gitara wherein khit maingay ang tao ay ok lng.. ala lng.. ung lounge nila ay puro youth lng at pti mga kaklase qng catholic ay nandun dn.. minsan nga eh ng-seminar cla bout sa fine dining and i must say personally, it was great.. dae q png na22nan dun sa hrm grad na ngtrabaho sa diamond hotel.. gya nung amrican, russian, at french service.. flambe na pang showmanship ata.. tpos pano hawakan ang wine glass properly.. red wine 4 meats at white wine ata for chicken and fish.. sa kaliwa ung spoon at sa kanan ang fork.. ung spaghetti ay ni rorolyo gmit ang fork pero d ntatapos dun un.. kelangan p ng spoon pra maaus tgnan.. naalala q pti ung medium rare at well done.. pg medium rare e me blood pa dw.. sbi nia.. me russian nga na e very rare dw.. takte.. e kng kumain k n lng ng raw.. ala lng.. comment n lng kng mali-mali cnaad q..

ala lng.. malayo lng sa catholic institutions natin in terms of benefits sa tao especially sa youth.. d q kc nakkta un sa mga simbahan na alam q.. as in blank.. pero it doesn't mean naman that there is a better religion.. sa tingin q ung institutions lng tlga.. khit kelan nman e ang religion is there not for beneficiary of man but for man to believe.. ewan q lng ha.. and am not preaching.

eun lng.. un lng naalala q eh..

nothing to do..

2007-01-18T19:03:00.000+08:00

sobrang katamad.. tinatamad na ko.. ilang araw na din na di ko nafifeel na maging progressive o khit man lang mging boosted ng onti.. haayy..

pero nung last tym, nawawla ko sa sarili q at nakabasag pa q sa lab class q. i broke it becoz am so preoccupied that my thoughts are superimposed by small ideas and dreams.. ewan..

kantahan na lng tau!!

Xiaoxin i can tell

Betray!
The Avalon is always beside me
And I’m following it home
Where is my homeOrion glows
And his eyes open up
I once believed I would set you in line

If only I had the strength
you’d be completely accepting something else

If you keep asking me I’ll melt away in the summer air
It won’t hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to please stop it now
If you keep asking me I’ll melt away in the summer air
It won’t hurt half as much and
I’ll beg for you to just tell me something

The fluid through the alpha waves and power cables everywhere
Exercising self-control The child calls
And she lies open I Once believed "if only i'd been thinking at all"

If only I had the strength
you’d be completely accepting something else

If you keep asking me
I’ll melt away in the summer air
It won’t hurt half as much and
I'll beg for you to please stop it now
If you keep asking me
I’ll melt away in the summer air
It won’t hurt half as much and
I’ll beg for you just to tell me something
If you keep asking me, If you keep asking me..

If only I had the strength
you’d be completely accepting something else

If you keep asking me
I’ll melt away in the summer air
It won’t hurt half as much and I'll beg for you please stop it now
If you keep asking me
I’ll melt away in the summer air
It won’t hurt half as much and
I’ll beg for you just tell me something

You swore Out like my lifeYou cried
So I’m engaged to smile

ansaya khapon!

2007-01-13T05:00:00.000+08:00

nagkita kame khapon ni erdie sa lrt katips station para ibgay ung onti kong gips at balak q na sanang umuwi agad dahil nghihintay cna piaget and the rest of the gang saken..(ndi ko barakada yan.. search nio na lng name nia) kaso niyaya ko ni erdie sa dorm nina zell at kala ko malapit lng. malapit nga.. isang kilometrong lakaran.. joke lng..

pagdating ko, andun c over gorgeous at over gwapong manong who's actually getting to look best (take note, it's not better) at naisipang nag-aaral pa ko sa risci dahil sa stupidity similarity.. andun dn cna ros na gs2 ng pangit kong pic, c zell na sexy, c cybs na mas sexy, c conrads na maikli buhok, c fabay na pumayat (i bet??), c jc na todo tahimik at walang imik..

eun, masaya kso mali ung nabigay ko erdie.. dpat large pla.. ang tanga ko..

haayyy.. is development a stereotyped process?? i guess it may vary dn if u actually find consciousness to gear ur own development.. conversely, how bout conformity? would this let you do it?

well that's a few mind buggling tenets i always think of..

when do u feel smiling?

2007-01-08T14:50:00.000+08:00

this past few days, i feel like i'm not nostalgic. maybe because this holiday break ended and i'm back to work. tsaka naka-focus na ko sa maraming goals na sana ma-achieve ko.

nakuha ko na prelim grades ko and it's not good.. effects tlga ng dota.. cguro bitin pa ko sa paglalaro ng dota kaya mababa pa grades ko.. haha..

you know what, someone's making me smile even for a while.. matagal n dng wlang nagpaparelieve sken.. salamat tlga tol.. i can say i feel relief.. kung mgulo e di magulo.. bsta un na nafifeel ko..

relief about what?.. about my nostalgic days.. dpat it would be in oblivion

changed..

2007-01-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

haii... galet p dn sken ung isang kaklase ko.. kxe b nman suplado ko eh.. pero pnapansin k nman khit onti kso nainis ata nung umalis kagad aq.. hehe.. vip?

gnun lng tlga.. peace na tau.. kso me pnagbago na e..

getting up..pumped up.. its work..

2007-01-02T10:48:00.000+08:00

i have to get back studying na.. pasukan bukas.. it sucks talaga.. it definitely sucks.. gusto ko pang mag-dota magdamag.. but necessituous jobs is a weight full of after images.. magulo noh?!?

basta it will surprise you na lang after thinking of a lot..

thinking nga naman.. seperates and prevails out of the ordinary..

it worsens? probably not.. just up a notch..

2007-01-01T23:23:00.000+08:00

i can't believe myself right now.. i just felt something to her.. naaalala ko pa rin ung face niya evry now an then.. marahil idle lang ako for a while but i thought i suppressed my feelings enough.. nasaktan na ko noon, bakit ganun? hindi ko pa din makalimutan.. it just happens instantaneously in a flashback way.. pag me bagay na related to her, i just remember her face and how she's related to it.. nakakainis.. i thought kaya ko ng madalian pero hindi pala.. minahal ko nga..

however i do believe as the feeling gets dusty and old, it'll be obsolete and no use.. probably medyo wrong ung use nung word pero it can stand for it.. feelings is feelings but bigger to it is existing is existing.. reality would always tell you that you must comeback to it.. coz that's the only place ur senses be held.. kung idealistic ka, mahihirapan ka malamang..

sana dumating na lng un right girl saken.. sana dumating ka na.. i really am getting shaky from everything.. maybe u'll be a great help

sana..

too much too soon..

2006-12-31T08:58:00.000+08:00

i always believed that your ownself is your own ultimate strength. i think that if yourself is your strength then definitely everything that happened to you is accounted to you for the reason that strengths subsist to do something.. however it changed.. nalaman ko na if you have none or zero opportunity, paano mo naman sisisihin sarili mo? how bout sa place where poverty is superimposed gaya ng african countries.. if you see grown people there, they're not as normal as you think basing it to your culture.. lam nio ba na 1 out of 4 5-year-ol child dies even their country is in a good year.. moreover, their parents just bury them having no remembrance or like no memories that they existed. e ano b naman aasahan mo? ganun tlga if a country lacks education and info dissemination.. unahin mo pa ba ang mga bagay-bagay other than your empty stomach? syempre yun na problem mo the whole day.. ur stomach.. mabubuhay ka pa ba nun kung inaalala mo lang family mo? mauuna ka na sa kanila kung ganun..

todo sakit ang feeling kung makikita mo..

e ganun tlga.. were fortunate na nga na ganito lang kabulok sa pinas e.. panu pa sa zimbabwe na todo na inflation sa knila.. hyperinflation.. anu un? lupa na lang kakainin mo? o hangin?

sana nag economics na lang aq.. hehe

o kaya sociology..

tpos proffesion ko.. professor.. sama..

gusto nga di magawa

Superorganic (my term sa walang pakialamanan)

2006-12-29T08:07:00.000+08:00

i have never been so bored in my entire life.. not in the sense wherein i'm idle and just thinking but i never have this decreasing interest over my hobbies and likes from the past years. it's so different and i'm feeling i'm losing a lot. its vague right? basta it's been very tiring just to push and struggle over a lot of work. i consider my studies as work na nga e. in short, nawawalan na ko ng interes sa pag-aaral. this last sem nga e, sobrang tamad ko as in magbasa lang hindi ko magawa. syempre naman, malakas yung feeling ko na mauuno ko subjects ko kc naturo na sa high skul namen lahat nung tinuturo sa college nmen ngaun.. lam ko it won't last but the thing is.. my losing interest over this would probably last.. sinubukan ko ngang i-counter however hindi ko nagawa.. imbis na ma-counter ko sya, nag-dota ko.. corny na kung corny pero almost evry skul day naglalaro ako for the sake of what? for the sake of pleasure.. my golly!! i'm but a stupid person.. no importance but i found importance? anu un.. gaguhan.. hayy.. just wishing it would change someday.. naisip ko nga maybe i need sumone as a prospect daw.. parang imbis na need eh using ang mai-term dun.. haha..

probably u find my post boring and non-substancial..

e that's what i feel for now.. struggling..