i have never been so bored in my entire life.. not in the sense wherein i'm idle and just thinking but i never have this decreasing interest over my hobbies and likes from the past years. it's so different and i'm feeling i'm losing a lot. its vague right? basta it's been very tiring just to push and struggle over a lot of work. i consider my studies as work na nga e. in short, nawawalan na ko ng interes sa pag-aaral. this last sem nga e, sobrang tamad ko as in magbasa lang hindi ko magawa. syempre naman, malakas yung feeling ko na mauuno ko subjects ko kc naturo na sa high skul namen lahat nung tinuturo sa college nmen ngaun.. lam ko it won't last but the thing is.. my losing interest over this would probably last.. sinubukan ko ngang i-counter however hindi ko nagawa.. imbis na ma-counter ko sya, nag-dota ko.. corny na kung corny pero almost evry skul day naglalaro ako for the sake of what? for the sake of pleasure.. my golly!! i'm but a stupid person.. no importance but i found importance? anu un.. gaguhan.. hayy.. just wishing it would change someday.. naisip ko nga maybe i need sumone as a prospect daw.. parang imbis na need eh using ang mai-term dun.. haha..

e that's what i feel for now.. struggling..